the golden age

As I said before life is short and life cannot be taken for granted. My pops had me when he was 36. He is now 66. My grandma is 91. I always thought I wanted to wait, or not have kids, but I now realize that I want kids at my current age of 29-30. I never thought that I would achieve the same level of fatherhood as my own pops, but today I saw something in myself that I never realized. Patience and cooperation. I kind of looked at that for the longest time as a financial burden I did not want. But I now see that I could be an excellent father. Playing with those toys today showed me what I lack in my life. To be an idol in a child's life and to make a difference in the world. I have been very selfish and naive in my life and the loss of someone very special to me allowed me to finally understand where I need to be in life. The golden age isn't retirement, it is raising children and having them idolize you for the littlest things.