Cheated by achievment

I have a mortgage now and always will pay that bill. Yet I want to decrease that payment and now I am being scrutinized. I make the same amount I did when I got the loan, Yet I want to decrease the payment and can't get the loan. All because I make too much in cash payments. I still show the same salary, yet they look at cash deposits that I made. What is wrong with someone working overtime to earn extra money. Hard work is now devalued as a liability. The bank sees my vacation time that I did not take in the week I worked for father. Yet they think that my week off should have been compensated by my day job. Fuck them I make money the real way, I took off the week not as vacation to earn double pay. I took it off to work. Vacation is what it is. I didn't do that and earned my money without that. The most Vacation I've taken in the last 6 years is a Friday off once a year to go to a Cubs game in Chicago. At $40.000 a year for the last 5 years, I deserve the respect of a mortgage I haven't defaulted on. Maybe I should not care anymore, but I have a conscious.
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Eric Brown

Dating Sucks

I'm 31 and kids explain my peers' life. I love kids, I umpire mature kids of 11 and 12. Does that mean that I want kids? I do, just not someone else's kids by default. I would love to have my own kids. I realize now that not many 32 year women are on the same page as me. It used to be simple in dating. Now it is so complex. I should have found someone by now. But I'm sure a able and willing woman may be in the same boat as me.
Eric
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best friends

To define a best friend and for them to not reciprocate is a tough thing in life. It is what it is though. We see our separate lives and separate areas of the country and no longer are best friends anymore. I saw it coming. What is tough to do is replace that feeling, yet I have. I will call my father my best friend even if that is not reciprocal. He means that much to me.

In the age of twitter and facebook some things are decided otherwise

Friends are now so easily measured and lost in the same day. A social norm has been broken. What defines a friend? Just because I know you does not define you as a friend. Yet the internet is littered with this thought. Friends are not bits and bytes to me. Friends are interpersonal relationships that exist in the truest of forms. Are we so separated from conversation that I get a text message explaining that a raccoon is in the chimney? Talk to me, don't write me an instant letter and then call me a friend for doing so. Call me old fashioned, but I believe a voice is a better way to communicate than a key stroke.

light hearted fun

Viewing photos of childhood brought the serious side of me back to light hearted fun and I will soon publish some of that innocence to you.

When the glue becomes weakened

The glue of the family is one person who cannot strengthen that hold that she once did. It was always strong and assertive, yet now it has become weakened to the point that her glue is no longer effective. She used to tape things on the wall with super glue and duct tape, but it looks like scotch tape now. It will stay for a while but the next person can easily tear down that tape. It get's replaced but only with scotch tape anymore. It is funny how that tape is so easily removed of a once strong woman. Lets get back to that glue and duct tape that she cherished in order to honor her.
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Eric