Christmas without a safety blanket of family

My Christmas alone to me was an experience that, at first was sorrowful, but in the end appreciative. I did not need to be with my loved ones on Christmas day to make it special for myself. After realizing that I would not be able to be with the family that I planned on being with, I made the most of the day. I lent a Christmas spirit hand and helped others in the neighborhood, that I wouldn't otherwise, dig out. I tried to make the short journey to Des Moines to spend the Christmas night with pops and step-mom, but I soon realized that the risk wasn't worth the reward. That saddened me at the prospect of my first Christmas alone. I damn near cried until I realized, I and many others weren't alone. Wrigley gave me comfort, and soon I had snow to move that got my mind off of being alone. I am thankful for how Christmas worked out. I found that when your away from family on Christmas, sometimes you have to find others in the same situation to enjoy it with. Even if it is a cat or a working situation.

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What I don't know about Christmas.

When I was a kid things were simple. Traveling to Arkansas may have been difficult but I did not know that reality. I knew one reality that I and my brother would gain a lot in our Lego cache. Life was simple. Ride to Arkansas in the van while sleeping on a couch. Pops would drive the Cadilacc with his brights on and not know it. It's these stories that I adore. It is why I love history. Everyone has a history that defines themselves. Know One thing that history is us and everyone. Not just politicians that influence the world. The stories of Americana shape the world.

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Are you fucking kidding me. Mourning is a word that has meaning to me. Mourning a life should be straightforward and direct. Don't bottle up anger or angst. I hang my shirts in my office in honor of the fallen victims not in misery of the future. A shrine does not exist to torment the realism of the reality. A shrine exists to celebrate the reality of the wanting of a better something in life. I celebrate a potential of a better reality of a certain team, yet I understand that a better team may not exist. A better human being may not exist, but that person still exists in our own minds.